By the time I was 11 and in the 6th grade at
Seal-Mathis Elementary Mama began to insist that I enter the 4-H Cornbread and
Biscuit Contest that was held each spring at the high school in Sneedville. I
always believed that her interest in this contest was because she loved
cornbread and biscuits and felt that it was a skill I should learn. After all, these were the only two bread
items we ever ate at home. Mama seemed to feel that it was her duty to teach me
every skill she knew so that I would be adequately prepared to be a wife.
The first year I entered the contest I only did so
because Mama said I should; I had never tried to make cornbread or biscuits,
but knew that I would probably learn how someday. Upon Mama’s insistence, I
entered both contests and went home to tell her I had done so. Days passed, but Mama never brought up the
subject of teaching me how to make cornbread or biscuits. I thought this was a little odd, but Mama was
one to keep her word so I just waited until she got around to giving me my
first lesson. I waited until we were
three days away from the contest; I finally asked Mama when we were going to
learn how to do them. To this she
responded, “Don’t worry about it,” so I didn’t. The next day I asked the same
question and got the same answer. I was getting anxious so on the day before
the contest I asked when we were going to do the biscuits and cornbread. Mama said, “Don’t worry about it; I’ll take
care of it.” I didn’t know what she
meant by this, but knew that Mama kept her word.
On the Saturday morning of the contest I panicked when I
awoke and ran to the kitchen where Mama was preparing breakfast. She greeted me with, “There’s your biscuits
and cornbread,” and pointed to the counter.
On the counter were neatly arranged bread baskets, one with HER biscuits
and one with HER cornbread. I started to protest and ask questions, but she
interrupted me saying, “Your Daddy will take you to town as soon as you have
breakfast and get dressed; your two breads are ready.” Stunned and confused, I
could tell that she had no plans to say anything more. I ate, picked up my baskets and got in the
truck to go to town.
When we arrived at the high school cafeteria and I joined
about 20 other contestants. I placed
each of my baskets where they went and tried to remain calm despite my growing
disease over what I would say if the judges asked me whether I made the
biscuits myself. The judges were Mrs.
Walker and Mr. Haston. Within twenty minutes
of my arrival the contest started, and by this time I was in a major panic mode
about whether to lie or not about who had made the biscuits if I were
asked. Slowly Mrs. Walker and Mr. Haston
moved down the line to each basket, tasted a portion of the offering and moved
on. I tried not to think about the
process and pretend that I was someplace else more pleasant and less stressful.
I heard our two judges ask some random questions or make a few comments, but I
was too far gone in anxiety to know what they said. Finally they came to my offerings and I
looked at my feet and prayed for silence.
I don’t remember them sampling my biscuits or cornbread. I only remember them several minutes later as
they came to the end of the table. Both
Mr. Haston and Mrs. Walker walked to the front of the room and announced the
winners. I came back to reality when I heard my name called for a blue ribbon
on ‘my biscuits’ and ‘my cornbread’. I walked up to the front took my ribbon
and felt awful.
Daddy and I returned home and Mama greeted us at the
door. She said, “How did you do?” I said, “I won on both of them.” She said, “Good” and that was it. We never talked about it again until the next
year when the same scenario was repeated with me winning again with Mama’s
biscuits and Mama’s cornbread. I did
this same behavior for three years in a row; I won first place each time. Mama and I never discussed the issue, ever.
It’s now 45 years later; Mama is dead, and I sit here
trying to make sense of all of this. The
only possible explanation I can offer is that Mama had me enter the contests
for her sake so she could have the reassurance that she was one of the best
bread makers in the whole county. It
never was about me. It was HER contest
all along; a contest that she had wanted to enter and win when she was a young
girl herself but never had the opportunity to enter or win.
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